We can't always remember everything we've been through, the happy and the sad. Memories fade and sometimes we forget the amazing and not so amazing moments we've created. I recently rummaged through old photos and memory boxes at my family home and brought a few of them back to my flat with me. I used a few in my Dear Dad.. video which I'll link, in case you are yet to see it.
I don't know why looking at old printed photos makes me feel so emotional. It might be because prints are pretty rare nowadays, or the fact I can see how happy or unhappy I was. It could be because I miss when life seemed so easy, or the fact I don't see certain people anymore.
I thought I'd sit down today and share a memory with you, give a little context around this photo. If this goes down well I might make this a regular thing. Who knows eh!
I can't be sure but I think I was about 12 here & as you can see, I'm smiling for this photo whilst eating a packet of crisps. Was I actually happy here, I don't know. I remember this swimsuit well, purple and black with white piping and I paired it with giant black shorts because I didn't want anyone to see my thighs.. or my stomach. I also remember asking my Mum to delete this photo because my arms looked 'fat'.
Every summer, my Mum, sister and I would travel down to Bournemouth to stay with my cousin & her children for a week, and every spring I looked forward to it. Theres something about water that makes me feel calm, I look at the sea and realise how I small I am. It makes me feel content, relaxed and at peace. Fish & chips, ice cream, sand in your knickers and chasing waves.. Seaside holidays really were the best.
I look at this now and if I'm honest, not much has changed. I still love crisps lol and I still love the sea but I feel a sense of sadness knowing that at 12 I was worried about my weight. I wish I could turn back the clock and tell 12 year old Grace that she's beautiful, but I can't. I don't see my cousins much anymore, they moved further away and as I got older I guess there wasn't really a reason to go to the beach anymore. I was too busy having house parties and getting drunk on WKD lol (it happened ok).
& life happened. Now that I'm writing this I've realised how much I want to go to the beach. How much I want to put my feet into the sea...
On a more happier note I remember singing in my rubber ring with my sister & talking with other kids as if I'd known them my entire life. Running around with wet hair, bronzed skin & being with my two favourite people in the world made me so utterly happy. I felt free & compared to now, I very much was.
PS. As if I was eating ready salted crisps. Its all about salt & vinegar haha.
I miss the sea too! Seaside holidays were always the most fun!
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I was really missing my wife when she left me for someone else. I was weak to take care of some situations and i let her slip my arms. I had to talk to my partner at the office who recently got her husband back. She told me to get in touch with John Patience who helped her get her husband back with a love spell. I was very sure of this because John has helped my partner get her husband back. So i called John Patience and told him i lost my lover and wanted her back. He encouraged me and told me to be happy. He did his thing and told me my wife will be back in 45 hours. I waited for that time and my wife called me and told me that she has forgiven me and ready to take me back in her life. Since then, my wife and i have been enjoying our marriage with our lovely 4 kids. I am very grateful to John for what he has done for me. I'd advice you to ask him for help if you have any problem on your relationship and some other aspects of life.His email is blessings434@gmail.com :)
DeleteI get emotional looking at old photographs too. Many of mine have been lost, thrown away, misplaced etc because my family moved around so much. So, part of the emotion for me is sadness at having so few you look at, joy at having found one to cherish, and generally sadness because I often remember being unhappy or worried about my weight, skin color, etc. Thank you for sharing
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I used to feel the same way when I was younger, I think many of us wish we could talk to our younger selves x
ReplyDeleteI feel so emotional looking at old photos. I love the seaside and have grown up going to the beach every summer.We have some beautiful beaches here in Devon and Cornwall, you should come and visit some time.
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This was really beautifully written grace!
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Seeing this post makes me want to do the exact thing on mine. That's for the inspiration
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I was really missing my wife when she left me for someone else. I was weak to take care of some situations and i let her slip my arms. I had to talk to my partner at the office who recently got her husband back. She told me to get in touch with John Patience who helped her get her husband back with a love spell. I was very sure of this because John has helped my partner get her husband back. So i called John Patience and told him i lost my lover and wanted her back. He encouraged me and told me to be happy. He did his thing and told me my wife will be back in 45 hours. I waited for that time and my wife called me and told me that she has forgiven me and ready to take me back in her life. Since then, my wife and i have been enjoying our marriage with our lovely 4 kids. I am very grateful to John for what he has done for me. I'd advice you to ask him for help if you have any problem on your relationship and some other aspects of life.His email is blessings434@gmail.com :)
ReplyDeleteThis was such a beautiful post! I'm the same I find it quite emotional looking at a physical photograph. It almost makes me feel quite bittersweet about the memories that come from them. Thank you for sharing this I really enjoyed reading this post :)
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