In various aspects of my life, I've been pretty lost for many months (probs a year and a bit tbf). I think thats just what happens, especially in your 20s. You change, you grow, you evolve and sometimes that leaves you feeling like 'wtf am i doing with my life'.
As someone who's always been into fashion (at 14 I had 200 pairs of trainers - they were my thang) my style has somewhat remained the same, but I guess its just developed.
I find inspiration from Instagram, blogs & of course everyday life. I love walking around London and seeing 'normal' girls wearing killer outfits - I often take a cheeky little snap so that I can recreate the look or put my own twist on it.
However a longtime ago I was overcome with some sort of weird pressure that I needed to dress differently. I needed to dress like a blogger, whatever the hell that means. I spent £100s on re doing my wardrobe & buying clothes that I thought people wanted to see me sporting. I stopped wearing colour and opted for the 'minimal' style (which isn't me at all FFS). I just completely lost myself trying to be someone I'm not.
I was scrolling through Instagram and noticing the 'top fashion bloggers' had a minimal, monochromatic, effortless style that I just had to have so my following would grow. I remember picking outfits for LFW back in February, and asking myself 'is this a fashion outfit', and again - what the hell does that even mean?
Im usually so sure of myself so when I get completely lost, I end up frustrated and annoyed - which is why I fell out of love for fashion. I stopped posting Instagram pics, stopped making fashion videos and stopped shooting outfits for my blog.
Other factors also played a part in me completely forgetting how I like to dress, such as, putting on weight (post coming about that soonish) and lacking in some serious self care..
The start of 2016 was extremely traumatic for me, for a number of reasons and looking back now, I was definitely suffering with my mental health and I was also extremely unhappy. I was under a lot of pressure, I was overworked and I wasn't taking care of myself. Putting on makeup was a task that required so much effort, I would often just go bare faced. I lived in leggings and baggy tops and all in all - I looked and felt like shit.
After a break in May, I realised enough was enough and I needed to sort myself out. Part of that was to have a think about my personal style and spend some time falling back in love with fashion. When you're feeling insecure and overwhelmed, its natural to put yourself last so I gave a shit ton of clothes to charity, sold a few bits on Depop and had a complete re-vamp of not only my life, but my wardrobe too.
I looked at old photos and reminded myself how I used to dress so it was time to bring that person back lol. I like being daring and bright. I love colour, texture and patterns. I love oversized kimonos and cardigans, with cropped tops and comfy trousers. I like high waisted jeans, gold hoops and gold rings. I love statement shoes and sheer materials. I love anything and everything thats bardot. I like eather & chic, affordable accessories. I certainly do not like a predominately monochrome wardrobe, fedora hats and fitted shirts - thats for damn sure.
Im so glad my inspiration is back so that I can make a little more effort in my choice of outfits. If my outfit slays then I feel happier (so ridiculous I know, but thats me). Im excited to start sharing my looks with you all again, across my different platforms. I'll be shooting with my photographer soon but I really like sharing 'less high quality' photos with you sometimes, it kinda makes my space feel a bit more authentic.
Im trying to hold onto 2012 blogging so fucking bad aren't I? LOOOOL!
What I have learnt is that your aesthetic is a reflection of you, and how you dress can often let people know how you want to perceived. I guess I'm bold, a little sassy and downright full of life. And you know what? Im cool with that.
Heres what I wore & a few items I would love to incorporate into my wardrobe (by love, I mean need. ABSOLUTELY need).
Oh my god! You look sooooooo hot! I'm recovering from anorexia and other mental illnesses and you are such and inspiration to me! The top picture came up on my notifications and the first though for me was how hot you look and do you know what, I need to say that to myself more often
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you're starting to find your way again! I always find that when my mental health gets bad I go into a downward spiral of losing myself, and I don't actually notice until I'm really quite far gone. Then it seems SO hard to get back. I'm looking forward to seeing more fun, vibrant outfits on here and your social media.
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I love that you're "holding on to 2012 blogging" haha! More of us should do the same! Love this post, it looks like you're getting your mojo back which is great to see x
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this look is fierce! love it :) and I'm with you, i dont get the whole minimalist vibe, I like it colourful and bold and that's me, so instead of trying to fit into something I clearly don't, I will do my own thing and continue to dress in what I like :)
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You look amazing. It is so important to always be yourself and I am glad you are back at feeling like it. Can't wait to see what you are going to show us next!
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beautiful! Wish you posted more pics of this outfit!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI was scrolling down for more pics, came right after watching your vlog about you going back to blogging more. Im so glad i did. I have just started blogging and I can see my sense of style being so influenced by what I saw other people wearing and doing, so thank you for this complete honesty! LOVE from malaysia!
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You looked so freaking sexxxyyyyy at that wedding Grace! I also heart Cali and Dani so I saw all the snaps and instagrams and it was a beautiful affair. And your outfit killed all the things. Everything. Just dead. hahaha!
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Very inspirational post! I'm pleased you are back to dressing like yourself again, love this look!
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