So I think I've lost my body confidence.
I'm struggling massively and I can't pretend anymore.
I've been losing it for a while. Although its not really obvious is it? Im still posting selfies on Instagram and trying to be positive and upbeat and happy and inspiring, but to be honest, I don't really feel any of those things at all.
Quite the opposite actually.
I feel ugly and unworthy and fat and gross. I feel insecure and uncomfortable and I have an overwhelming urge to restrict my food and go on some insane diet to lose weight. What is it with us women with thinking that losing weight is the answer to all our body image problems?
I know that part of my negative thoughts about my body is my illness. My bullshit eating disorder that pisses me off at the best of times, but even more so when it makes me want to hide and cry and not be me anymore. The other part of my negative thoughts is comparison. I occasionally get into a place where I compare myself to everyone and I get stuck into scrolling through Instagram wishing I looked like a Nicki Minaj style video vixen or an Australian beach babe - anyone but me. I don't discriminate lol.
For the past month or so I've literally woken up everyday and wanted to do nothing but lay on my sofa in my comfies, forgetting about all of my responsibilities. I've dreaded going out because I'm paranoid that people will look at me and think 'ew'. I've struggled to simply get dressed because the curve of my stomach and the dimples of my thighs make me feel really sad. I've read fat shaming comments about myself which has filled me with self doubt and questions like; do I need to change? should I eat more 'healthily'? will losing weight make them stop? (spoiler, it won't).
I've even cried on my boyfriends shoulder asking for him to reassure me that he finds me attractive and you know what? ITS SHIT.
Its absolutely fucking shit.
I hate my new hair (I look like a tragic 80s flashdance performer). I hate my clothes (who knew spending £1000s a year on ASOS wouldn't provide me with a wearable wardrobe). I hate my skin (I have a giant red angry spot and I'm losing my tan). I hate my bum (its not round enough). I hate my belly (its not flat enough). I hate my chubby fingers (I just do). I hate my neck (isn't it obvious?). I hate my vagina (I need a wax - its out of control LOL). I could go on but I'm supposed to be giving up negative thoughts for lent.
There is also an added pressure being part of the body positive community, to love myself day in and day out. But right now I just can't. Right now, I've lost my body confidence and I don't know how or when I'll get it back.
I know its normal to feel this way, but it makes me even more upset that feeling so bogged down about my body is acceptable? Its so common that I bet 99.9% of my readers (you lovely bunch) can relate to pretty much every single thing I've mentioned in this post.
So what happens now? (takes a long hard deep breath lol).
Im taking today out. Im going to have an evening to myself to indulge in self care, both physical and mental. Yes I'm going to have the longest bath, wrap myself in a blanket and watch crime shows. But I'm also going to go for a long walk, make myself a sexy dinner, read, meditate and place a small (I'm lying) order on Boohoo for some new threads for my upcoming trip.
I know I'll be back to feeling myself soon enough but for now, here's to a mini digital detox and some time out to find a little happiness.
Its more than ok to admit that's how you're feeling because all it means is the rest of us now feel better that if this can happen to you, its ok that its happened to us. We're all in this fight together lovely girl and you'll win it tomorrow even if you can't be arsed to fight it today. Even superheroes can have a day off xxx
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Our marriage lacked understanding, it was like every normal marriage as long as I didn't say anything that my husband disagreed with or win an argument. Am always trying to know the ins and outs of his life as his wife, and it turned into a huge blow-out. Our divorce wasn't really about our lack of understanding according to my therapist, it was as a result of a spiritual separation. She introduced me to DR BEN
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I was in dire need of permanent solution from DR BEN after he assured me of smooth and easy result within 48hours immediately the spell is done. Like the honest man he is, Doc. proved my therapist right and brought back my husband exactly the way I wanted. My time with DR BEN was so magical, I never know anyone has the power to unit a broken home and heal a broken heart. Thanks to my therapist {Theresa} and DR BEN {voodoospelltemple80@gmail.com} for making us a better couple and example to a younger generation.
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Well done for taking the time to care for yourself, I think it is the best thing to do in moments like these. We all have ups and downs although not everybody has the guts to show how life is in the darkest times (something I can understand also, not trying to point fingers or anything).
ReplyDeleteI have to say it saddened me to read this list of things you don't like about yourself because when I see you, I always think of how beautiful a woman you are, inside and out and from head to toe.
Your body is a map of everything you've gone through and it's just perfect the way it is. I hope you get to a place where you can regain full mental health and see yourself the way I do.
I have faith that you will beat this ED, you're stronger than it ! ♥
You've been such a saviour and inspiration to me, ever since I started following you. You are real and real people have good days and bad days. I have felt the things you are describing for years and thanks to you I am begining to learn to turn these feelings into loving myself instead. Be proud you beautiful soul xxx
ReplyDeleteI love how honest this is. Have been following for years (never commented) but feel moved to today. As someone whom struggles with that constant tension of self love& loathe, i feel for you... i kind of think u/us/the world has got caught up in the body positive / fat shaming / fat embracing culture and vibe that im not my size. But eating disorders and social injustices aside u sound uncomfortable and unhappy in ur skin, and yes i agree restrictive dieting wont "solve" the deeper "why" u feel this way, it doesnt mean u cant practically work towards improving ur health and self esteem on the inside and outside. Yes work on whats going on in ur head (therapy days off etc) but maybe it wouldnt hurt really focussing on being physically healthy too... creating healthy meals, working out consistently, setting nsv (non scale victories) so its not about dieting and what the numbers are on the scale. Personally lifting weights transformed my life - my mindset, my shape, my body & my confidence. I feel so fuckin strong!!!!! U need it in ur life. Go for it u have nothing to lose xxx
ReplyDeleteTo me, a bigger woman who hates her body but loves food too much to do anything about it, I feel like the body confidence narrative is becoming a little too 'all or nothing' for me. It's like, if we love ourselves just as we are, chubby bits and all, we have to shout it from the roof tops but I know that I will never be that person. I am not ok with my body. It is an unhealthy mess, I dont see myself the way that I look in photos and it's upsetting that I can't be as confident as body positive women. My thought is that maybe a more understated confidence narrative should be made visible to the public, you dont have to force yourself to fit in the box of a 'sassy curvy woman' and we shouldn't expect that from you. I've been a subscriber for YEARS now and I love your honesty but maybe just be kinder on yourself regarding the pressure you put on yourself to fit into the plus size narrative. If you want to loose weight, great, and don't feel like you're letting down your plus size viewers by doing it. Health is always the most important thing here and I know for me that my depression and anxiety doubles when I'm at my heaviest. I'm in a bit if a funk at the minute but I've never declared myself to be confident the way I am anyway so I can't even begin to relate to what you're going through.
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When I have days like this, just like you, I find myself looking at (photoshopped, lets be honest) pictures of 'beautiful' women, with curves in all the 'right' places. But actually, I find it a lot more productive to look at women with similar body shapes to me and I just have to take a minute to deep how FLY they look.
ReplyDeletebtw, often when I do this, I go straight to your instagram.
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Reading your post makes me think about why we all struggle with the same problems. Even me, if I'm never been overweight I still find things on my body that I don't like and I'm never please with myself. But one point we need to realize that we need to start taking care of our bodies. Because at the end of the day we only have one and we need to live with it all of our lives. We need to understand that what we put into our bodies make it look the way we see it every single day from the mirror. I've never had a flat tummy but as soon as I changed my mind about what I put into my body it has started to change. I also added little bit on exercise and miracle happened- I started to loose weight. All my clothes suit me better, I have more energy and the most important I'm happy about myself again. I've been very misrable about my body for so long but finally after 2 years I'm back where I wanted to be. But only because I started to make small changed daily by daily. I still eat my chocolate when I'm feeling for it but not as much as I did before. Also love helps a lot. When you have somebody besides you who tells you you are beautiful every single day then nothing else shouldn't matter because you are the richest girl in the world. It's not about being skinny to be super happy but to be healthy – there is a big difference. Skinny does not make you happy but healthy version of you will. I hope the best for you girl and that you will find the way back. You are such a great role model for women all around the world to put yourself out here in this cruel world of social media but you are ROCKING it! Please don't loose your confidence just make small changes and you can double your confidence up!
ReplyDeleteHi Gracie, BIG fan of your insta. I'm obsessed with your style/hair/beauty/everything.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts are these:
1. I hope you know what an inspiration you are. It's much more than you will ever realize.
2. Like you said, unfortunately I am one of that 99% of women who relate all too well to the feelings you described in this post. Something that I am trying out, that I want to share with you and everyone, is sitting with these thoughts instead of resisting them. They are not only uncomfortable because they simply aren't true, but also because we simply don't WANT to have them. We WANT to be these ass-kicking BOPO warriors 100% of the time and these thoughts are contrary to that desire. So we resist them. And THAT resistance to the thoughts, not the thoughts themselves, are the cause of our suffering. What I am trying is this. I am minding my own damn business and then from out of left field I tell myself myself I'm a fat gross slob. I react to that immediately yelling at my mean self NO YOU'RE NOT YOU'RE PERFECT. But that causes me pain because I feel that dissonance. So now I sit with the thought. I hold myself. As if I were my own mother, or best friend, or lover. I put both hands over my heart and acknowledge that I feel that I am a slob and have compassion for my heart and mind and body. It's only when we LET the thoughts happen (LET them happen, not believe them) that we can react with a clear mind, and ask is this true?
My guess is you've heard this before as you meditate. But I'd LOVE to hear your thoughts on mindfulness if you want to share.
Take care,
Emma
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ReplyDeleteI never ever comment any of internet posts, IG or youtube videos. Reading this made me nod on each line! I feel absolutely the same at the moment! I hate waking up and knowing I need to dress up and go to work, I hate my thights, i hate my belly... I hate my double chin and my arms... I really try to change something, but it seems nothing works..
I should go to doctors to check my self out, my mother always rinds ke this, but actually- I am affraid! I do not want to be fat shamed, I do not want to feel like small kid that is told off...
I just want to cudle in my bed, hug my husband, who is always nice, loving and kind and sleep until it stops!
Hi Grace! I'm so happy you wrote this post because it's totally okay to be feeling like this. No one is confident 100% of the time and I personally think people forget that and assume because you're mostly body confident you must never have a bad day. Wrong. I'm stuck in the same rut at the moment, I feel absolutely awful everyday and tell myself after every meal 'I'll eat healthier next time' but what if I don't want to? Healthy living not just eating, is a way of life for some people but it's also a trend and just like clothing or music trends, we shouldn't all feel like we have to get on board. It’s easy to look through Google and see photos of women we wished we looked like, but then we wouldn’t be us. Everyone has their own opinion of what the ‘perfect body’ and that’s just what it is. An opinion. I’m sorry this has gone onto a bit of a tangent but this was truly a relate-able post that sent me on a ramble!
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I'm new to your blog, but you have been very inspiring ever since I stumbled upon this website. Thank you for this personal and honest post. I think it is very brave of you to share that we all go through ups and downs, like you said: it's normal to feel confident one day and insecure the next. Hell, I gain and loose confidence by the minute! Don't ever let society make you think that you have to feel a certain way, in the end of the day only you know how you truly feel and what you need. Work on realising those needs and your confidence will return x http://www.justsavxnnah.com
ReplyDeleteYou are gorgeous Grace, I hope you start feeling better soon ♥
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Hi Grace
ReplyDeleteLike this post a lot, and of course, like all the ladies here, I feel/have felt the same way.
I think we all need to learn to be kinder to ourselves, I know that's definitely a lesson I need to learn. Something I read once said something like, imagine if you had the 5 year old you standing next to you. Imagine telling that 5 year old they are fat or gross or whatever other negative things we tell ourselves on a regular basis. It would be awful; you wouldn't do it.
Treat your 20-something self like that 5 year old. Speak kind words and be gentle to yourself. It sounds like you're doing some good self-care. I wish you all the best X
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DeleteIt all started last year May when my husband visited Switzerland for a Programme which lasted for two months, When my husband returned home i noticed some changes in hist character towards me and the kids, Everything i do to make him happy he gets irritated and nags at random, leaves home and comes back late, Sooner he seek for a vocation alone to Switzerland again which i granted thinking that will make him happy but to my greatest surprise i never knew that was the end of our marriage if not for Dr Ogudu the marriage savior, Sincerely i was so crushed when my Husband of 6 years left me and moved to Switzerland to be with another woman.The pains was just too much for me to bear that I couldn't just bear it anymore. So i had to reached out to the Internet for help until i found out that Dr. Ogudu was the real deal.. I had tried the whole lot I knew, and with your spells, blessings and extraordinary magical powers, you did all the work for me, which you have guaranteed me positive result in 48 hours, my Ex Husband came back to me and he was remorseful for the whole lot he has done And now my life is balanced and i am happy again. All thank to you sir you contact him via email and website now
Email [OGUDUSPELLTEMPLE@YAHOO.COM]
whatsapp number +2348106058254
Website...http://oguduspelltemple.wixsite.com/drogudu
JUSTICE FLORA HUSTON TEXAS 39
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ReplyDeleteMy name is Albert Brown. I had a problem with my wife six months ago,which lead to us going apart. When she broke up with me,i was no longer myself,I felt so empty inside. Until a friend of mine told me about a spell caster that helped in same problem too, that she found on Web page. i emailed the spell caster and I told him my problem and I did what he asked me to briefly To cut the long story short,before i knew what was happening,not up to 48 hours,my wife text me and said she wanted to come back and so she came back to me and told me she was sorry about what has happened, she now tell me every time and every day that she loves and miss me. I'm so grateful to this great spell caster Dr Noble and i will not stop publishing his name on the Internet just for the good work he has done. If you need any help you can contact this great man he will help you any any way you want, you can email him at templeofjoyandprosperity@gmail.com i guarantee you that he will also help you okay
Dear Grace,
ReplyDeleteI read this today sitting on my own in an airport waiting to fly home after a business trip. I spent today and if I'm honest most of my life panicking about what everyone thinks about me. And I struggle with the same thoughts that you have experienced. And I'm sick of telling people I'm fine and that I'll be okay. Because most days I don't feel okay and most days I feel like losing weight would be the answer to all my problems, most days I see strangers talking to their friends or partners and laughing and I convince myself that they are talking about me. I know that this isn't true and it's my disorder playing tricks on me. So thank you for writing this, I know that there are people out there feeling something similar. I immediately wanted to follow you on Instagram, I need some positive influence in my life and now I've found someone. So thank you Grace ��
You're honesty is what continues to inspire thousands of us women Gracie. You are beautiful, you are strong, you are enough. Xx
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DeleteI never believed in Love Spells or Magics until I met this special spell caster when i went to Africa to Execute some business..He is really powerful..My husband divorce me with no reason for almost 4 years and i tried all i could to have him back cos i really love him so much but all my effort did not work out.. we met at our early age at the college and we both have feelings for each other and we got married happily for 5 years with no kid and he woke up one morning and he told me he’s going on a divorce..i thought it was a joke and when he came back from work he tender to me a divorce letter and he packed all him loads from my house..i ran mad and i tried all i could to have him back but all did not work out..i was lonely for almost 4 years…So when i told the spell caster what happened he said he will help me and he asked for him full name and him picture..i gave him that..At first i was skeptical but i gave it a try cos have tried so many spell casters and there is no solution…so when he finished with the readings,he got back to me that he’s with a woman and that woman is the reason why he left me…The spell caster said he will help me with a spell that will surely bring him back.but i never believe all this…he told me i will see a positive result within 3 days..3 days later,he called me himself and came to me apologizing and he told me he will come back to me..I cant believe this,it was like a dream cos i never believe this will work out after trying many spell casters and there is no solution..The spell caster is so powerful and after that he helped me with a pregnancy spell and i got pregnant a month later..we are now happy been together again and with lovely kid..This spell caster has really changed my life and i will forever thankful to him..he has helped many of my friends too with similar problem too and they are happy and thankful to him..This man is indeed the most powerful spell caster have ever experienced in life..Am Posting this to the Forum in case there is anyone who has similar problem and still looking for a way out..you can reach him here: drosedebamenspellhome@gmail.com CONTACT THIS POWERFUL SPELL CASTER TODAY VIA EMAIL:drosedebamenspellhome@gmail.com
ReplyDeleteWe all have days where we hate ourselves for our self-perceived flaws. Sounds like you are dealing with yours in a completely healthy way, which shows how centered and strong you are.
ReplyDeleteI came here from an article about the asshats trolling you over your Nike campaign. Fuck 'em...let them choke to death on their own watery vomit. You are the face - and body - of international advertising for a great brand. They are the bitter embodiment of small lives. You win.
For what it's worth, you're also pretty smokin' hot.
PS Wtf is up with all the love spell spam?
Keep going strong! You are a valuable person! You are beautiful! God Bless you.... Anita
ReplyDeleteHi Gracie, first time I saw you was in the clean eating dirty secrets documentary...and man your confidence shone so brightly. I identified that much with those other people you interviewed, the clean eating obsessive compulsive freaks. You looked way above them, so free that I wished I were like you. You inspired me to get out of my eating disorder and start living my life and enjoying food. Thanks. Now, it makes me really sad that an amazing woman like you is feeling that way, but it's ok, you have the right to feel like that.
ReplyDeleteI don't know what your eating disorder is but I can imagine, I've been there, and I'm sure you know that restricting and dieting will only fuel it and make it much worse. Good luck beautiful, this too shall pass :)
As women, we're very hard on ourselves. We have these ridiculous expectations about what we should look like, and unlike men, we put way to much emphasis on our looks. Why is it so important for women to have the perfect hip to waist ratio, or to have a particular face shape, or for our hair to be a certain way? Men don't do shit and still win at life. I think you should look into a healthy lifestyle for the sake of having a healthier future, but don't do it because of your looks. You look amazing already, is just a matter of getting some insurance today for a healthier and longer life.
ReplyDeleteStay strong and be kind to yourself
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ReplyDeleteHOW TO GET OVER MARRIAGE OR RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS SOLVED WITH LOVE SPELL: CHECK ON DR. SAMBO WEBSITE: http://divinespellhome.wixsite.com/drsamb
Hello to you all,i want to use this time to thank Dr. Sambo for what he has done for me last week here ,my names are marjorie mc cardle from Australia,
I never believed in Love Spells or Magics until I met this special spell caster when i contact this man called divinespellhome@gmail.com Execute some business..He is really powerful..My Husband divorce me with no reason for almost 5 years and i tried all i could to have her back cos i really love him so much but all my effort did not work out.. we met at our early age at the college and we both have feelings for each other and we got married happily for 5 years with no kid and he woke up one morning and he told me hes going on a divorce..i thought it was a joke and when he came back from work he tender to me a divorce letter and he packed all his loads from my house..i ran mad and i tried all i could to have him back but all did not work out..i was lonely for almost 5 years So when i told the spell caster what happened he said he will help me and he asked for her full name and his picture..i gave him that..At first i was skeptical but i gave it a try cos have tried so many spell casters and there is no solutions when he finished with the readings,he got back to me that hes with a woman and that woman is the reason why he left me The spell caster said he will help me with a spell that will surely bring him back.but i never believe all this he told me i will see a positive result within 24 hours of the day..24hours later,he called me himself and came to me apologizing and he told me he will come back to me..I cant believe this,it was like a dream cos i never believe this will work out after trying many spell casters and there is no solution..The spell caster is so powerful and after that he helped me with a pregnancy spell and i got pregnant a month later and find a better job..we are now happy been together again and with lovely kid..This spell caster has really changed my life and i will forever thankful to him..he has helped many friends too with similar problem too and they are happy and thankful to him..This man is indeed the most powerful spell caster have ever experienced in life..Am Posting this to the Forum in case there is anyone who has similar problem and still looking for a way out..you can reach him
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ReplyDeleteHi everyone, I was going crazy when my husband breakup with me and left me for another woman!! All thanks to Dr Trust the best love spell caster online that helped me to bring back my husband today and restore happiness in my marriage.. My husband breakup with me and left me to be with another woman, and i wanted him back. I was so frustrated and i could not know what next to do again, I love my husband so much but he was cheating on me with another woman and this makes him break up with me so that he can be able to get married to the other lady and this lady i think use witchcraft on my husband to make him hate me and my kids and this was so critical and uncalled-for, I cry all day and night for God to send me a helper to get back my husband!! I was really upset and i needed help, so i searched for help online and I came across a website that suggested that Dr Trust can help get ex back fast. So, I felt I should give him a try. I contacted him and he told me what to do and i did it then he did a spell for me. 48 hours later, my husband really called me and told me that he miss me so much, Oh My God! i was so happy, and today i am happy with my man again and we are joyfully living together as one big family and i thank the powerful spell caster Dr.Trust, he is so powerful and i decided to share my story on the internet that Dr.Trust is best and good spell caster online. if you are here and your lover is turning you down, or your husband or wife moved to another person, do not cry anymore, contact this powerful spell caster Dr.Trust on his email at: Ultimatespellcast@yahoo.com OR Ultimatespellcast@gmail.com you can also call him or add him on Whats-app: +2348156885231 ,His website: https://ultimatespellcast3.wixsite.com/dr-trust
I thank Jai Mata Sunlight, for the miracle work she did for me. I have be having serious issues with my husband...and because of that, he no longer come back home after work...and at times he do, he don’t don't talk to me, and we have not be talking together ever since. We are not yet divorce...but it looks like, divorce was even much more better for us… more than they way we were living in the house. The love of husband, and wife, was dead. I really thank jai mata Sunlight...because though, my husband and I was still living together, who don't know...would think we're in marriage. But, the thing was that our marriage crashed and we were two divided people, separated from love. When we are aside, people know us as husband, and wife. but at home, we were like single partners ...who do not feel anything love. At times I wonder, where is the love, that we were into? Where did it go to? Because I still love him very much...but he no longer sees me as a woman. So, I have really be in pain but, no one knows... where it hurts me, and burns me so...much, and I don't know who to discuss with..that will give me solutions, to the problems I was facing in my marriage. I have contacted many people before I met up with jai Sunlight. And I among all I have contacted, was all fake. And it was jai Sunlight...who was the only one who helped me bring back, my happiness, and the dead love in my marriage. Thanks and praise to you mother. I am very happy...and I am also happy, to share this great opportunity to you...Readers. for you to get out of that misery you're into, Jai Sunlight...is the key. She saved me. She saved my falling marriage. She gave me life. Right now, as I am writing this testimony, I am swimming into joy and in happiness...because my husband wrong attitude toward me changed. He is very, very much inlove with me and not only that, he is also very nice to me. and I am swimming in the ocean of happiness and joyfulness...with this, I want to share with every reader's of this testimony, To be apart of my happiness.to celebrate with me and be celebrated because, I am going to leave her email here... in case you need her help. Pls, feel so free to contact Sunlightmata@gmail.com... to get your solutions restored back to you. Be the next to share a happy moments. Contact her.. and I promise you, you will thank me later. Thanks to you goddess Sunlight, for your great help and insight. You're truly indeed a great mother of love.
ReplyDeleteHello, my name is Elizabeth, i was going through an article and found out about a man called Dr Bomoh. i have been suffering from breakup issues with different guys. i had to contact the spell caster. Steve was on the verge of leaving me for another woman. but i stayed positive and believe i could have him back and make him stay. lo and behold Dr Bomoh helped me. Steve and i are getting married soon. Dr Bomoh is such a nice man, he also helped me stop my cardiac arrest problem. Thanks to him and thanks to God for the gift given to him. If you have any problem whatsoever, contact him on this email: godbomohspirit@gmail.com
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It never ceases to amaze me how many people suffer from body confidence issues, for years I felt isolated and alone with my thoughts and feelings but now I realise that unfortunately they are the norm for so many people.
ReplyDeleteIt frustrates me when people say that I shouldn't have any issues with body confidence, mainly because I know that I shouldn't but also because it makes them worse - I feel that people judge me for having issues.
I know that body confidence is covered online, but I think that if people were more open and honest about their feelings in the way that you are then people wouldn't think that they abnormal for not feeling comfortable and confident in their own skin all the time.
Emma | HarmonyBlaze.co.uk
Please do not think you are the only person who feels this way. its exhausting to feel happy all the time sometimes a day in our duvet is much needed. There have been times in my life when i have felt like destroying a shop display because everything on the rail does not look how the mannequin promised me it would look lol! Then theirs days when Im feelin myself lol! Those small minded people who have made disgraceful comments towards you please please do not let them take your awesome moment with Nike away. You deserve to enjoy such an amazing achievement that those idiots could only dream of having. Dont let them destroy you. Your hair will grow, when your ready have a wax lol, if YOU want to lose weight then do it for YOU not because you feel the people you dont know thinks you should. There are aspects of my body I am not happy with eg my diet, shape and I am taking my time to make positive changes but I know its not going to happen overnight my body gets sore and tired and I use it as an excuse to rest 2-3days...ok a week I rest for a week but then when I get that jolt of enthusiasm I try again. & those days I dont feel like trying at all I remember i am only human. please remember your an awesome human inside and out xxx - Lavinya
ReplyDeleteI wish to share my testimonies with the general public about what this man called Dr aghatotikolo has just done for me , this man has just brought back my lost Ex husband to me with his great
ReplyDeletespell within 24 hours. I was married to my husband we were together for a long time and we loved our self’s but when I was unable to give him a child for 2 years he left me and told me he can’t continue anymore then I was looking for ways to get him back until a friend of mine told me about this man and gave his contact email [aghatotikolospiritualhome@gmail.com] then you won’t believe this when I contacted this man on my problems he cast a very strong spell for me and bring my lost husband back within 24hrs, and after a month I miss my monthly period and went for a test and the result showed that i was pregnant. i am happy today am a mother of a baby girl,thank you once again the Dr aghatotikolo for what you have done for me.Contact him on his private email [aghatotikolospiritualhome@gmail.com] if you are out there passing through any of this problems or predicaments in your life................
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I can relate to this so much. Body confidence is the hardest thing to build up and the easiest thing to lose. One shitty comment can make everything you have fall to pieces.
ReplyDeleteBut you're beautiful and absolutely kill your personal styling because you always look amazing!!!! It's all well and good me saying this, but honestly Grace, you are a beaut - im sure everyone will agree.
As long as you're healthy and happy that is all that matter, a fad diet won't lead you to happiness and i'm sure you definitely know that!
I'm sure a digital detox will do you a world of good and you'll feel better after some self love!
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My love life has changed for better since the interference of the most powerful spell caster on earth called DR.UZOYA in my relationship, My testimony today is in regard of the help DR.UZOYA render me when my lover departed from me. My name is ILAN from spain and it gives me joy today in writing this testimony as a way of showing my appreciation to DR.UZOYA and at the same time i am using this opportunity to advise those that are finding stress and pains in their relationship or marriages to contact DR.UZOYA who is the best spell caster in the world through these contact details via email: driraborspellcaster@gmail.com OR call +13019098775 his website https://driraborspellcaste.wixsite.com/spell-caster Because DR.UZOYA is the only one that can restore your marriage or relationship.
ReplyDeleteMy love life has changed for better since the interference of the most powerful spell caster on earth called DR.UZOYA in my relationship, My testimony today is in regard of the help DR.UZOYA render me when my lover departed from me. My name is ILAN from spain and it gives me joy today in writing this testimony as a way of showing my appreciation to DR.UZOYA and at the same time i am using this opportunity to advise those that are finding stress and pains in their relationship or marriages to contact DR.UZOYA who is the best spell caster in the world through these contact details via email: driraborspellcaster@gmail.com OR call +13019098775 his website https://driraborspellcaste.wixsite.com/spell-caster Because DR.UZOYA is the only one that can restore your marriage or relationship.
ReplyDeleteI saw good feedbacks all talking positively on the awesomeness of dr. wakina love spell and spiritual healing powers via dr.wakinalovetemple@gmail.com. I became testy and hungry for services to help get back the love of my husband. My husband was and has always been a good and caring lover, but everything changed the night he came back drunk, we had quarrel which eventually lead to fight, I was hospitalized that night. After spending days in hospital, I came back to note that he has threatened me with restraining order. His actions where so petty like he has been nursing my exit. I was in pain for being thrown out for no reason.
ReplyDeleteI could have naturally waited for him to come back to his senses and do the right thing, but I discovered I was two months pregnant, so I needed him badly, but I cannot win back his heart alone without connections from higher powers.
After two months of separation without any means of communication, he came back to me as dr. wakina predicted after casting a reunion love spell on us, we are united again for three weeks waiting anxiously for our baby. It is unbelievable dr. wakina possesses such power. Doctor can be reached via dr.wakinalovetemple@gmail.com
I feel myself in every word you say ! You're words are so accurate apart from the part about the boyfriend, I don't go to anyone asking for reassuring, I just give myself a break from everything around me !
ReplyDeleteCan I be brutally honest with you Grace? I've been subscribed to you for a long time now (since your GRWM for your 22nd birthday) and I've definitely noticed a change in you. I'm not even sure what it is, because I don't personally know you but something about you is very different. You can see it in your video content and I just feel like you're constantly trying to change yourself, when there was nothing wrong with you in the first place.
ReplyDeleteIt's very hard to explain and put into words but there are parts of you that I feel like I miss. It seems as if you're unhappy no matter you do; When I first subscribed to you, I thought you were stunning, when you lost all that weight and you were experimenting with the weaves (which I totally think you should go back to doing; the weave, not the weight loss) and even now that you're bigger, you are still stunning but we as viewers can see that you're not happy. As someone who has struggled with mental health and self esteem and body issues, I want to tell you that you need to take a break. From Youtube, from social media in general. You just need to take a break and really focus on yourself and making yourself happy. Which I know is easier said than done because your whole brand is based around social media ...
I'm chatting rubbish, but these are my thoughts. You only get to live this life once, what is the point in doing it unhappily?
Love, a faithful subscriber.
x'o
My name is Mary Silva, I just split up with my boyfriend of 7 years. We were great together, completely in love and talked about marriage and growing old together, we traveled the world together, everyone knows us as a perfect couple, we never fought always laughed together… however the last 2 years have been very difficult. We have been living together for over 5 years but the last 2 years have been a stressful living situation as I had to take in a friend that was in need. I also started my own business which kept me extremely busy. I am completely devastated, hurt, lost and just want him back. I love him completely. We had a few discussions before he left about trying to work things out, and he felt I took him for granted…I had stopped treating him with appreciation and love. I agreed that I have to be more romantic and be an equal partner in the relationship. Over the course of the following days I showed him love and appreciation, treated him like I had done in the past however he still wanted out. he said he needed time and space to figure out what he wants. I told him I would not give up on us but I would give him space that he wanted. he said he still loved me and care a lot about me but was just hurting.i was totally down because i need my man back one day a friend of my introduce me to a spell caster online who lift me up gave me hope and with-in two days after his spell my man who told me he needed space, call me and come back home to me i must say today we are happily married not only married but have two lovely kids all thanks to Dr happy a father and a real spell caster.
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ReplyDeleteI am Shannon by name. Greetings to every one that is reading this testimony. I have been rejected by my husband after three(3) years of marriage just because another woman had a spell on him and he left me and the kid to suffer. one day when i was reading through the web, i saw a post on how this spell caster on this address Makospelltemple@yahoo.com , have help a woman to get back her husband and i gave him a reply to his address and he told me that a woman had a spell on my husband and he told me that he will help me and after 2 days that i will have my husband back. i believed him and today i am glad to let you all know that this spell caster have the power to bring lovers back. because i am now happy with my husband. Thanks for Dr.Mako. His email: Makospelltemple@yahoo.com OR. his phone number: +2348108737816.
Dr. UZOYA whose details are [driraborspellcaster@gmail.com] and {+13019098775} is the best love spell caster you can get on line, there is know doubt about him, his spell is 100% sure that immediately after contacting him your relationship will be fixed and hence forth your relationship will be save and secured . i was once dumped by my lover for many months but immediately i contacted him my lover that dumped me for another man came back to me within 48 hours. i am telling you today that Dr.UZOYA whose details [driraborspellcaster@gmail.com] and +13019098775 is the best lover spell caster you can get as far as Internet is concern.
ReplyDeleteHi everyone, How to get ex lover back fast.
ReplyDeleteMy ex and I were friends for 8 years before we finally started dating. We really had a lot of fun together and I truly believe we can be great for eachother. Yet the timing just wasn't right. We dated for almost 2 years and during that time we both were in university and working so it was difficult to see eachother. And due to that we started fighting and eventually it led to him cheating on me because he was drunk at a party. We tried to move past it but in the end the distrust was too hard for us to keep moving forward and my anxiety caused him to break up with me. It has now been 3 months and we just started talking. He said he misses me and I told him I still have feelings for him but he said he isn't ready. What should I do? I needed help. As i was browsing through the internet i came across a website that suggested Dr.Unity can help get ex lover back fast and so on. So, I felt I should give him a try. I contacted him and told him my problems and he told me what to do and i did it and he did a spell for me. 11 hours later, my boyfriend came to me and apologized for the wrongs he did and promise never to do it again. Ever since then, everything has returned back to normal. I and my boyfriend are living together happily again. Dr.Unity is the best online spell caster that is powerful and genuine. If you have any problem contact him and i guarantee you that he will help you. Here’s his contact: Email him at: Unityspelltemple@gmail.com ,you can also call him or add him on whats-app: +2348071622464 ,His website: http://unityspelltemple.yolasite.com .
Tracey ,England.
i am Myers by name. Greetings to every one that is reading this testimony. I have been rejected by my husband after three(3) years of marriage just because another woman had a spell on him and he left me and the kid to suffer. one day when i was reading through the web, i saw a post on how this spell caster on this address salvationlovespell@gmail.com , have help a woman to get back her husband and i gave him a reply to his address and he told me that a woman had a spell on my husband and he told me that he will help me and after 2 days that i will have my husband back. i believed him and today i am glad to let you all know that this spell caster have the power to bring lovers back. because i am now happy with my husband. Thanks for Dr.paul . His email:salvationlovespell@gmail.com or contact him on whasapp +2349051441669
ReplyDeleteAfter being in relationship with him for seven years,he broke up with me, I did everything possible to bring him back but all was in vain, I wanted him back so much because of the love I have for him, I begged him with everything, I made promises but he refused. I explained my problem to someone online and she suggested that I should rather contact a spell caster that could help me cast a spell to bring him back but I am the type that never believed in spell, I had no choice than to try it, I mailed the spell caster, and he told me there was no problem that everything will be okay before three days, that my ex will return to me before three days, he cast the spell and surprisingly in the second day, it was around 4pm. My ex called me, I was so surprised, I answered the call and all he said was that he was so sorry for everything that happened, that he wanted me to return to him, that he loves me so much. I was so happy and went to him, that was how we started living together happily again. Since then, I have made promise that anybody I know that have a relationship problem, I would be of help to such person by referring him or her to the only real and powerful spell caster who helped me with my own problem and who is different from all the fake ones out there. Anybody could need the help of the spell caster, his email: kakabuspiritualhome@gmail.com you can email him if you need his assistance in your relationship or anything. CAN NEVER STOP TALKING ABOUT YOU SIR HIS EMAIL ADDRESS IS:kakabuspiritualhome@gmail.com CONTACT HIM NOW FOR SOLUTION TO ALL YOUR PROBLEM
ReplyDeleteMy mouth is full of testimonies, my husband left home for two years to south Africa for a tourist, where he meant this prostitute and he was bewitch by the girl my husband refuse to come back home again, i cry day and night looking for who to help me, i read a news paper about a powerful spell caster called Dr Dr,UZOYA and i contacted the spell caster to help me get my lover back to me and he ask me not to worry about it that the gods we fight for me.. he told me by mid-night when all the spirit is at rest he will cast a spell to reunite my lover back to me. and he did in less than 2 days my husband came back to me and started crying that i should for forgive him, i,m so happy for what this spell caster did for me and my husband. his email are; [driraborspellcaster@gmail.com] or u can give him a call on +13019098775.
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ReplyDeleteIt all started last year May when my husband visited Switzerland for a Programme which lasted for two months, When my husband returned home i noticed some changes in hist character towards me and the kids, Everything i do to make him happy he gets irritated and nags at random, leaves home and comes back late, Sooner he seek for a vocation alone to Switzerland again which i granted thinking that will make him happy but to my greatest surprise i never knew that was the end of our marriage if not for Dr Ogudu the marriage savior, Sincerely i was so crushed when my Husband of 6 years left me and moved to Switzerland to be with another woman.The pains was just too much for me to bear that I couldn't just bear it anymore. So i had to reached out to the Internet for help until i found out that Dr. Ogudu was the real deal.. I had tried the whole lot I knew, and with your spells, blessings and extraordinary magical powers, you did all the work for me, which you have guaranteed me positive result in 48 hours, my Ex Husband came back to me and he was remorseful for the whole lot he has done And now my life is balanced and i am happy again. All thank to you sir you contact him via email and website now
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